Tuesday, January 26, 2010

dear die-ary,

"there's nothing terribly wrong with feeling lost, so long as that feeling precedes some plan on your part to actually do something about it. Too often a person grows complacent with their disillusionment, perpetually wearing their "discomfort" like a favorite shirt. I can't say I'm very pleased with where my life is just now... but I can't help but look forward to where it's going."

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I wanted to tie this moment
onto a piece of string
and wear it around my wrist
as a bracelet,
preciously loving it
But then i remembered, that
this moment loves its self!
So i painted it a pair of wings
and untied it.
and to this day it still comes to visit
and over a cup of tea
we laugh together.


Friday, January 15, 2010

so many commitments
lack of discipline,
and self-regard.
loosing myself
in the collective
that taste of dislike
realizing that every denial
is a step away
from dismantling shame
I cannot take anything
from you,
I can only give

Friday, January 8, 2010

bitter work

ugh. ...this is the best part...

In pursuit of self-preservation
we have lost our will to fight
to believe
to stand up in who we are
I can never deny that which makes us who we are
that which makes me who i am
living and breathing every moment
the moment i start dying is the moment
I must leave you
before all I am is killed -- destroyed
and there is no life left
what is self-preservation,
when it kills us?

stop it!!
the doubts of destruction and self-preservation fill my head.
imagined fairy tales crack and bend
seeping holes pour out latent dreams
only to fall into my hands
to create
or to destroy
Enjoy it!!
was what you always said.

When you fall in love with the wind,
it is a tempest which encompasses your heart
diverting any navigational hope
you may have.
Who falls in love with the wind
and hopes to hold on to it?
to hold it?